Thursday, July 2, 2015
Believe it or not, I used to be a dreamer.
It has been a ages since I posted anything up here. I would blame my complete inability to keep up with things. So anyways, I've settled in quite comfortably in my new university so here I am.
Honestly, I don't even know how did this law mess caught me when my biggest dream was to be an automotive engineer. Yeah, you know. Cars and all that automobile stuffs, pretty cool for me. I was aiming to pursue my studies in Germany or Korea because heck, automotive engineering was ( and still is ) my passion. Like, I get so happy and enthusiastic when I see anything, literally anything regarding cars.
I dreamed big. I wanted to work for Automobili Lamborghini, yes the Italian automobile company ( hahahaha crazy, I know ) and perhaps make new designs of their infamous Lamborghini, or I could simply be their maintenance engineer, I don't really mind either way as long as I get to be an employee of that particular company.
But right now I don't really know what am I doing. Why am I not studying engineering- I'm afraid if one day I'd lose my desire to learn because I'm generally pursuing someone else's dream at the moment. When people ask me what's my ambition, I think it will be a little bit off if I tell them about my dream due to my circumstances. So I stick with this scripted answer, "I don't know. I'm just following the flow" and "I don't really mind, I just want to learn". Those are like my own way to encourage myself, not that it works though.
But, as cliche as this might sound, I think I just need to keep moving forward. I'm striving hard to push myself to love what I am doing right now, so that I won't be left behind.
......Let's just all keep being dreamers. Dreams are nice, eventhough you know you can't achieve it.p.s I still get emotional when my friends are all discussing engineering stuffs. I'd rather be left out in such topics.
0 loner (s)